IT A BOY!!!!!

We got great news yesterday, we are officially parents of the cutest little guy from Ethiopia !!!! YAHOO!!! We got the phone call last night and then the official email this morning. Adoption is quite the journey. I have gone from total excitement to complete mental breakdown and back so many times in the last 24 hours. I'm sure Chris is so confused when one second I'm excited and the next I'm crying because of the money (or lack thereof) or because my baby is in an orphanage growing everyday without me, or then because I am thinking of his birth mother who had to make an unimaginable decision in order to save her child. I don't think I have cried as much in my whole life as I have in the last couple of months. It just really makes you put everything into perspective. I know adoption is not for everyone and I truly believe that this desire to adopt is part of a greater plan. I have always wanted to adopt and after having such a hard time with Mara I realized this is just part of the process we needed to experience to lead us to adoption. Taylor and I were talking last night about how much she already loves her little brother and he doesn't even know us. It touched my heart to see how excited she is and to see the compassion she has. I have been looking at his picture and thinking about him just like I did when I was pregnant. I even keep thinking he looks like my other kids. He just has a permanent tan:) I must be looking at his picture way to much. Chris and I spent 10 hours in classes last weekend and met some great people who are going through the same thing we are so that was great. Its always good to see people who already have four kids and are adopting more. Sometimes I feel like people think, What the heck why would you want five kids? Bring on the madness!!